Learning to Pace Myself

Hey guys!

The Lake Outside the Missionary Apartment

This week, assuming I spend the rest of my mission here in Rennes, marks the halfway mark of my time here. It's a pretty crazy thought for me to think about how fast that's gone so far and how potentially fast the rest of the time could go. I really don't want this to come to an end. It's such a special, blessing-filled experience, and one that I'll never really get to experience again. 

That being said, that doesn't mean that, after 21 and a half months of doing this, I'm still as full of energy and fire as when I started. I'd say that one of the hardest parts of being a missionary is simply finding how to pace yourself correctly so that you can make it through the 24 months. A lot like running that half-marathon almost two years ago, I've had to really focus on applying the right amount of energy. Of course, we want to give all that we have to the Lord, every day, but a missionary needs to know how to pace himself. Elder Holland says it really well in a quote I've been thinking a lot about lately: "To raise our families and serve faithfully in the Church [specifically, as missionaries, I add], all without running faster than we have strength, require wisdom, judgment, divine help—and inevitably some sacrifice."

Two weeks ago, my pace was a little off. I was pushing myself too hard and trying to do too much all at once, and, as a result, nothing was really coming to fruition because I just had too much on my plate. I would wake up to the alarm after what felt like only a few minutes of sleep and jump out of bed only to feel my feet still sore and achy from the day before, and I'd find myself getting frustrated with myself because I felt like I was working my hardest and it wasn't doing anything. I came to the realization that I was maybe trying a little too hard. So, this last week, I tried to correct myself and balance back out for the few months that lie ahead.

Unfortunately, as the week went on, we still weren't seeing any results. After a couple days of this, I realized that, although I felt much better physically, I was still spiritually low. I didn't feel like I was accomplishing my purpose, and this time, because I wasn't doing enough. I had grown complacent in just a few short days and I let myself slip into a state of "slothfulness" as the scriptures sometimes call it. 

As I've studied Preach My Gospel over the course of my mission, one of the interesting things that has stuck out to me is that is never says that you need to work hard as a missionary, something which really surprised me at first. But, as I "age" and mature as a missionary, I really am coming to understand why the manual teaches to work  effectively, and how our that is really the secret to pacing oneself throughout the mission.

This past Saturday, I had an exchange with Elder Blais, who, by my definition, is the image of effective missionary work. This exchange was really full of miracles, and it's something that I'll have to talk about more another time. But the primary miracle that came from it is the pace that Elder Blais was able to help me set. He really helped to show me how I can give all of my heart, might, mind, and strength without burning out or running on empty before the time the Lord has given me runs out. I'm looking forward to this week, and the rest of my mission thanks to the example of wisdom, judgement, and sacrifice that Elder Blais helped me to see.

Of course, as we go through life and apply this same principle to our families, there are going to be ups and downs, and we should expect that. And that's where the divine help that Elder Holland spoke of comes into play. It's really in the moments where we wonder if it's possible that we need our Heavenly Father the most, when we should pray the most. But, after we pray, it's up to us to do our part as well to overcome our trials. Président Babin told us recently "Pray like everything depends on God, and work like everything depends on you." It's this principle that can really help us to accomplish miracles in our lives.

I hope you guys have a great week, and wish Nana my best again (she had been in the hospital for a couple days but is doing better). Keep up all good work back home!

Elder Bigler


Photos

"I'm in the Dictionary"
Squint; Have Eyes Askew
(Cross-eyed)

The River Vilaine Running Through
The Middle of Rennes

Dinner at the Bishop's House

"It's not like I'm leaving as a lowly worker
to be a missionary"

Or some sort of Translation

Mother's Day Skype and Back Up Plans

Hey guys!

Mother's Day Skype

Well...I honestly don't really know what to write. I feel like we just talked yesterday, cause we did, and this week was all kind of a blur.

You remember the word "fruge" right? The word that we use in the mission for when you get stood up, when the person who promised you they would be at such and such a place at a certain time, mysteriously vanishes, isn't there, and conveniently doesn't answer their phone when the time comes and you're standing there in the agreed place feeling disappointed, not too surprised because it happens a lot, and a little frustrated because you took out the time to go there for what feels like nothing. That word. :)

So, this week we got "fruged" a good handful of times. No big deal, it's just a part of missionary work. But this time around, Elder Kelley and I are trying to be proactive about it all and "expect the unexpected", you could say, having back-up plans for almost everything we do. If something fell through, we came prepared this week with something else to do in that area and to essentially roll with the punches that tough side of missionary work can sometimes throw at us.

So, my brief little thought for you guys this week is just how important it is to have good back-up plans. I've really gained a testimony this week of how, when things don't work out the way we want them to, that doesn't mean that they're not working out the way the Lord wants them to. As we got fruged on Thursday, we had set up to go visit someone we had been trying to contact for a while, Wedner. Finally, he was there and let us right in and we shared the message of the Restoration with him and committed him to read the Book of Mormon and pray about it. Because we were well prepared, and wanted to do the Lord's will no matter what happened in our personal circumstances, He was able to bless us to be able to bless Wedner. He should be coming to Church this Sunday. :)

You never know how the Lord is going to guide you to those that need his help. This week I'd like to encourage you all to look around for those people that the Lord has put in your path who have need of the Gospel. Whether they're members or not, the message of Faith, Repentance, and Eternal Families, given at the moment of the Lord's will, can and will strengthen those that he has prepared.

It was awesome talking to you guys yesterday, and I love you all so much! Thank you for all that you do for, and all the support you give. Let Nana know that she's in my prayers here in France and that I love her. Keep up the good work and until next week!

Elder Bigler


Photos

The Whole Family Together for Mother's Day

Rainbow  Over Rennes

Rennes Town Square with Military Drill for
Bastille Day

Searching Hard for an Answer from God

This week I was able to live a wonderful experience, the experience of searching hard for an answer from God and seeing it come little by little.

After I finished my emails last week, and we finished our evening, I went home that night and prayerfully made a list of the positives and negatives of extending my mission, of staying and of going, whether it was four weeks or six weeks, even to the point of how it would probably be just me, taking a plane by myself. How if I extended I wouldn't get to spend my last day in Paris during soldes for some good shopping. I covered everything spiritual, physical, and emotional. I thought pretty long and hard about it all (while making cookies for Elder Sumsion's send-off; that's a good time to think), and didn't really come to any conclusion. That night, as I prayed for an answer, prayed to know what to do, I felt like I should read my Patriarchal Blessing and do the same sort of thing.

The next morning during part of my personal study time, I really dug into it. I honestly had never before really read my Patriarchal Blessing searching for a specific answer like that. It was really a sweet experience as I realized how much guidance is really given to me in there. But still, through all of that, I hadn't really come to any solid conclusion. To me, it just seemed like either option made sense. So I decided to take Dad's advice and talk to my mission president about it.

I gave Président Babin a call, but, it was Wednesday, which meant transfer day, so, between seeing off the old missionaries, and welcoming in the new ones, he was pretty busy and didn't have really any time to talk. 

But, the next morning he gave me a call back and we got to talk about it. The call with him was really the turning point for me. He explained to me that what the church requires for someone to extend their mission is a "particular reason" (translated from French, I don't know if that has the same connotation) and so he asked me about mine. I told him about how much I've loved my mission and the growth that I've been able to see in myself and others and how I really would like to accomplish more before I go home. He really let me take time to explain myself and said in response that "today is the first day of the rest of your mission". He promised me that if I do my best, right up until the very end, that I will be able to be perfectly satisfied with my mission at the end of the two transfers that I have left. At the end of our phone call, I felt quite a mixture of emotions. Why didn't he jump on the idea of having me extend? Had my extra service just been rejected? Could I really accomplish all that the Lord wants me to accomplish in just two more transfers? It really took me a few minutes to gather myself back together and put my head back into the task at hand. But I thought about what he said all throughout the day and into the evening as I said my evening prayer. I wanted a confirmation of his words, that it was really possible to do what the Lord still wants me to do in just a few short weeks. It didn't come that evening, or the next day.

This last Sunday (so yesterday) I fasted for that confirmation that I had been looking for throughout the week. It was a pretty long fast, due to our Sunday schedule, with dinner at 8:00 that night instead of 5 where we wanted it. But at the end of it all, as we prayed with one of our amis, Blaise, that we would all be able to receive the answers to our prayers, I received mine. I'll be following the council of my mission president, and really, the council that we teach to people every day, and that is, enduring to the end. Working my hardest, every day, until the very end, and that "end" is the day that the Lord assigned me when I was assigned to report to the MTC on August 7th. So, long story short, I'm coming home the day I'm supposed to be coming home, which is July 23rd. 

I'm really looking forward to the few months I have left, and all the miracles that the Lord has in store for the people of Rennes. I have an awesome companion who loves the work and is willing to put in the effort necessary, and I have wonderful, inspired leaders around me who help me catch the vision that the Lord has for his people in the North of France. I love being a missionary, especially here in Rennes. I love wearing a white shirt and tie so people can see who I am from far away, and I love even more wearing a plaque so that people can see who I am representing when I'm talking with them. But more important than those outward physical things are what's in our heart. And I pray that, even when I won't have those outward, physical signs of my calling, that people will still see something different in me, as a servant of Jesus Christ. 

I'm so thankful for His mission, and the time that He's given me to serve Him.

Elder Bigler

Photos

Not Coming Home Yet But Planning Ahead

BBQ Pineapple Burgers
That's How You End Your Fasting

Typical Building Where Adam Spends a Lot of Time
10 Buildings Each with 15 Floors

Inside an Abandoned Building on the College Campus
Nice Bulbasaur Pokemon on the Wall

 

Apparently the Building is No Longer Needed
Not Sure Who the Missionaries Were Looking for Inside

Fin De Chantier
(End of Construction)
Are You Sure?

Satan is not going to control the Internet

So, picture this: You're in a mission wide conference, with the 250+ missionaries of the France Paris mission. A member of the First Quorum of the Seventy gets up and addresses you about the importance of using tools to get a job done better and how in the end it can make you stronger. He's using pictures to do this and shows you a picture an illustration of a man who just finished digging a big canal and who know has bigger muscles than before and says, "You can see here that his muscles have grown, that he's become...oh, what was that new word that sister missionary taught me...oh yeah! He's swoll!"

Mom and Dad, hopefully, if you didn't get that, the brothers can explain it to you. :) Honestly, it was the funniest thing, especially coming from Elder Kearon with his British accent.

Obviously, the big news is the iPad conference yesterday! The big let down is that they had a problem with the shipping and we actually didn't get the iPads themselves yesterday... So that was kind of disappointing, but other than that, it was a really great conference. We were able to hear from Elders Kearon and Nielsen, who are both really awesome. They honestly presented the iPads and the whole "modern era of missionary work" thing in such a great way. I don't really know how to explain it all, it was quite a bit of information, but, for me, the overall theme was how the goal with the iPads, in the end, is to really help us to better accomplish our purpose as missionaries and to help us be better able to conquer the temptations that come with technology. Elder Nielsen said that the church has taken a stand and decided that "Satan is not going to control the internet". He talked about how the temptations in the world today are going to always be there, that we need to be honest with ourselves and accept that they are always going to be there in our pockets. That's just the world we live in. It was really interesting to me to see that the church has moved from focusing on putting internet filters on computers and things like that to simply teaching people how to overcome temptations when they do come. It's a principle that can be applied in all aspects of our lives, and for the rest of our lives. We talked about creating a plan to overcome temptation, so that we're ready when it comes. 

At one point, Elder Nielsen shared the story of what happened last year to the missionaries in the Philippines, when he was there. The part that hit me the most was the story of 10 sister missionaries. As he told it, they were all gathered in their apartment when the 200 mph storm was coming in. The building was sturdy enough that they weren't going to have any problems, but the storm brought with it a tidal wave. They quickly ran upstairs to the second floor as the water came in, but it kept rising. All the could do was climb out and onto the roof to avoid drowning. Out, exposed, into the open, powerful typhoon. Together, all ten of these sisters clung on to each other on the roof of their apartment building as the storm passed directly over them and bodies floated past them in the water of the wave. But, together, they survived. They made it through the storm.

And that's exactly how it has to be for us. If we don't all support each other in the fight against temptation, and Satan, we won't be able to make it. It makes me think of the famous Helaman 5:12. (And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall).Your foundation, the thing that keeps you rooted when the shafts in the whirlwinds come, can, and I'd even say should be, in part, your family and your friends. Sometimes, the "rock" of Christ can be those around you.

I don't really have a whole lot to say about the iPads, seeing how we won't be getting them for a little while longer (they didn't say how much, but probably a few weeks). But with what they've told us and the ideas that we've already got flowing in our apartment alone, they are really going to be effective tools for the work and for helping us as missionaries and members of the church to be better equipped and prepared to combat against the difficulties of the world we live in. It's a really exciting time to be a missionary, that's for sure!

Elder Sumsion and Elder Blais
with Andy at His Baptism

Just to end with a little spiritual experience, this week I was able to do the baptismal interview for Andy, from China, who got baptized this last weekend. I got to see how much his testimony and relationship with God has grown. At the end of the interview, I asked him to say the closing prayer, and what he said really touched me. He said: "Heavenly Father, thank you so much for the time that Elder Bigler has taken today to help me. Please bless him. And as I take this big step in my life, please be with me as well Father. I know that this is not going to be an easy path, but that it IS your path. I ask you to be with me, hand in hand, as I start this journey. I know it is possible with you. Father, we love you. And we say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen." As he finished this prayer, I knew in my heart, through the confirmation of the Holy Ghost, that he was ready for baptism. Before his baptism, he had no real belief in God, or anything, but during his prayer, I could feel the connection that he has created with his Father in Heaven.

It was a really good week, and I'm looking forward to another one this week! Elder Baldwin, who I lived with in Calais, will be moving into the apartment, replacing Elder Sumsion who is moving to Caen. Other than that though, transfers didn't affect us too much. :)

Keep up the good work back home, and the prayers! Dad, thanks for the help with my questions, it's such a great blessing to have such support from home. Make it a great week and I'll talk to you guys in 6 days!

Elder Bigler

There was also an additional email from Adam asking the following: 

Well, we had that big iPad conference yesterday. (I'll talk about that in my email) It was honestly a really spiritual conference, and one that got me thinking and reflecting more than in a while. As we left, I was really thinking about how close I am to the end of my mission, and how much more I want to accomplish before I leave. I worry that I might not have accomplished enough when my time comes. A few missionaries in our mission right now are extending their missions, and it's really got me thinking about whether I do that as well. I feel like, this is a once in a lifetime chance, and it's the greatest work on earth. Why not serve the Lord as much as I can and put in a little more effort? Since I start school 39 days after my current release date, I wouldn't have enough time to stay for all 42 days of an extra transfer, but I could do an extra 4 weeks, with approval from Président Babin of course. But that would put me home exactly 11 days before the semester starts, which is really close. But, on the other hand, it's for the Work, and for the Lord, and I feel like he could bless me and help me accomplish whatever I need to in that time. It's just something I've been thinking about a lot, and a decision that's hard to make because neither side is a bad decision. I'd just kind of like your input on it.

What do Parents say to that?  Stay tuned.....

Photos

Pink Flowered Tree and Adam

Andy's Birthday with the Missionaries and Friends

Teaching to Recognize the Spirit

Hey everyone!

Elder Bigler at Le Mont Saint Michel

Gotta keep it super short this week, thanks to our trip to Le Mont Saint Michel, which took up most of the day. It was really beautiful, and just a marvel to get close to. The view from the outside of it is the best. As you look up at this big island/castle, it's hard to believe it's real. But it is! It kind of blew the Vianden castle out of the water... Anyway, I hope the pictures show a little bit of the beauty of it all. (More Photos Below.)

This week for us wasn't anything super special, but not bad either. Just good, I would say. :) Nothing nearly as busy as yours back home with all of the crazy comings and goings of the Bigler family. But it was still good. We had a lot of the good things that we had planned fall through, unfortunately, but we were able to have a few good lessons throughout anyway. One of the people that we met on the street last Sunday night, that I mentioned last week, named Marc, agreed to meet with us again at the church this Saturday. He's a really cool college guy, who actually lives in Saint-Malo, where we went a few weeks ago, and is just finishing up the semester here in Rennes, so we won't be able to see him again for a while. When we met with him, after giving a tour of the church, we sat down to talk about why we're here as missionaries, and what our message was. During our discussion, he said, "You know, I've crossed paths with religious people like you before, but I never agreed to meet with them. But the reason I decided to meet with you again was because when I was with you guys before I felt..." and he trailed off. For the first time in our conversation, he struggled for words, trying to describe the way he felt with us. As far as I could tell, he was trying to describe the Spirit. We kind of made eye contact as he was trying to find his words and we both just kind of knew that the other person understood. We went on to teach about the Spirit and the role it plays in giving us answers to our prayers. Like I said, we won't be able to meet with him for a while, but I know that understood how he can find his answer someday, when he's ready.

Next week, I'll be emailing on Tuesday because we have a big mission conference on Monday (iPads!). So, until then, have a great week everybody, and keep up the good work!

Elder Bigler

Frenchism: There's no "and sign" on French keyboards for some reason...


More Photos of Mont Saint Michel

Batman at Mont Saint Michel

View Looking Up to Mont Saint Michel

Cathedral at Mont Saint Michel

Interior of the Cathedral

With Adam in the Front You Can
See the Size of the Cathedral

Beautiful Architecture

Looking Down from Near the Top of
Mont Saint Michel

The Historic (Tourist) District

Fireplace Large Enough to Roast Missionaries

Batman - Always Vigilant

Such a Simple Act of Service

Hey guys!

Once again, already running out of time, so I'm gonna be a little short again.

For P-day, since there are 4 of us in the apartment, we divide up the chores, Elder Kelley and I do groceries and Elder Sumsion and Elder Blais do the cleaning. Which is fine with me, but it's a little hard considering that we have to carry all of that food home in bags, all of that food being enough food to feed 4 guys for a week. Then, on top of that, we decide, for example, that next week we're going to go to Mont Saint-Michel (yeah, it makes Vianden look a little sad), so to save time, we shop for 2 weeks in one. Meaning Elder Kelley and I are now in charge of carrying, in one trip, enough food to feed 4 missionaries for 2 weeks. Talk about a lot of food.

Things like this are not something that I really expected to be doing as a missionary, nor are they something that you probably think about me doing when you imagine me as a missionary. But they're a part of the life of a missionary, and, yes, even shopping can help us grow (in Elder Kelley's and my case, physically, in the shoulder and fore-arm areas. :) ). On our way back to the apartment today, after doing that. We entered into the building, and started to take everything upstairs to where ours is. Of course, we had a little too much to heft all the way up there in one load, so we went up with what we could carry. But as we turned back around to go and get the rest, here came our neighbor hauling what was the heaviest part of all the groceries. He was currently in the process of cleaning his car, vacuum and everything downstairs, but he saw that we were a little tired and needed some help, and jumped in to do it. It was such a simple act of service, something that he really didn't even seem to think much of, but something that really hit me. People aren't always nice to the missionaries, believe it or not, and when someone does something like that, especially for their weird white-shirt-wearing American neighbors, just to help, it means a lot. The last couple weeks in Rennes have been kind of hard, as we've worked just o find a few people to teach, but I know that God watches over us and is thankful for the work that we do, and that he can show his love to us through others.

A Lot of Missionary Shoes with a Lot of Miles on Them

This last week, we set a goal to have 10 lessons with random people in the street. For us, that was a pretty high goal. But the week went pretty well, and as we got to Sunday evening we had made it to 8. But, it wasn't 10. We had an hour and a half left in the evening, and honestly, I don't think either of us thought we were going to be able to accomplish our goal. But we said we'd do our best. And, surprise surprise, the Church is true, and within speaking to 5 people, we got our last two lessons! It came, but only after the trial of our faith, after a few hours of getting rained on without umbrellas throughout the week, a few mean words yelled at us, and a few days of sore feet. It just took that extra little push to get there, to reach the point where miracles happen.

Things are starting to pick up here, and I really feel so great! My feet have hurt more than in a long time when I go to bed at night, and I'm more tired when I wake up than I can remember, but I feel happier than I've ever felt on my mission. I'm really trying to do my best to make these last few months the best that they can be! It's a lot of work, but it's all worth it.

En Mission pour le Seigneur,

Elder Bigler



Photos

A Giant Kinder Egg
320 Grams of Chocolate

Elder Bigler with His Kinder Egg
Inside was a Giant Kinder Toy from the Avengers

Elder Kelley and Elder Bigler
Legal Visit to Paris

The Iconic Eiffel Tower
126 Years Old

Conference and Easter Weekend

Hello family!

Interior of a Cathedral in Rennes

So, I'm kind of already out of time this week, but I want to try to get something good written out. Conference weekend was amazing, and we got to learn so much from everyone that spoke. I honestly never thought I would get that much out of it before. I remember being a kid and just wanting to play my Pokémon game on my Gameboy Color instead of listening to President Hinckley. You guys made me come sit down and put it down for a minute before I had time to save to listen to what he had to say. I don't remember at all what he said that day, but I do remember, on the other hand, that after he had spoken, my Gameboy, without saving, was dead! I really loved conference as a kid...

But I can see how much I've grown since those days. I really appreciate the opportunity we have to listen to such inspired, wise people. It's really such a powerful time. 

To keep things brief, I just wanted to explain the video I uploaded to dropbox. It kind of explains itself as I give a really awkward dialogue through the whole thing. It was last week at Saint Malo, the castle/city we went to. Right before the video, Elder Kelley had just run all the way back to the other side without me, leaving me stranded. We were all kind of panicking, the Zone Leaders even turned around halfway through the run across and went back, because the tide was coming in so fast. Needless to say, I got a little wet on the way back across. I wish I had taken a picture of myself, but I totally didn't think about it. Anyway, I thought you might enjoy it, although it's not quite as good as a nice long letter. :)  (The Video is posted along with the Facebook post for this letter.)

Mom, I really liked your letter this week! It honestly brought such a big smile to my face to hear your testimony of the Book of Mormon like that. I'm so thankful for all the blessings that our Heavenly Father gives us through our obedience. They don't always come in the way we expect them, but they always come. That's what I've really learned on my mission. How everything is predicated on this, the first law of heaven. I feel so happy when I'm obedient because I know that God is happy with me and that he will show that to me through blessing me and you guys, my family. It means so much to see his deep, infinite love, and know how much he wants to bless me, and each one of us. Easter has been such a wonderful time to reflect on that and feel his presence around me.

Well, I've really gotta get going. Hopefully I'll have a little more time next week to tell you about what I'm up to. :)

Thanks so much for all that you guys do for me! It's so wonderful to have a loving family back home supporting me. It's not something every missionary has, and something I don't thank you enough for. Tyler and Kevin, sorry I haven't really been able to reply to your emails very well lately, I'm just getting so busy! I hope you guys know how much I love you. You too Brian. :)

Okay, for real this time, I'm saying goodbye. :)

A la prochaine!

Elder Bigler

Photos

New Member, Leena
Adam did the Baptismal Interview

P-Day Haircuts